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[03 Jan 2005|09:42pm] |
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Happy New Years! Its 2005. In this year I will graduate, start college, and turn 18. This year is going to be wonderful.
For new years, I didn't really do anything except hang out w/Josh. We've hung out everyday since he's been back. Well everyday but today. But I think we needed a break.
Well I have finally figured out how to put pictures on! So I'll put a few up today and a few more later on.
( Pictures! )
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[22 Dec 2004|06:44pm] |
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I am a c/o 2009 at UNF!
What?!
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| words could not describe |
[19 Dec 2004|07:41pm] |
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I haven't written in here in what feels like a million years. My life has been great... amazing even.
Josh and me are still together, and have been for almost 2 months. I love having a boyfriend here all the time. Never really had one of those... We have been hanging out soo much. He left to go to his dad's for 10 days today. I miss him... a lot. We don't get to talk while he's in Arizona, so I 'll talk to him the 30th. I'm sad. I've become one of those girls... haha.
Exams start tomorrow. I only have 1 tomorrow and its math. I feel pretty confident on them so hopefully i'll do well.
I miss him.....why?
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[28 Nov 2004|05:29pm] |
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This is my long over due entry. Apparently I don't update enough. Whatever.
Well its offical that me and Josh are boyfriend and girlfriend. It happened 11/27. We hung out Friday and Saturday w/Rebekah. Friday we went to see the Increditbles. It was really good. Saturday we had movie night. We watched chick flicks, but we told Josh that he had to watch chick flicks if he wanted to stay over. He enjoyed them. I think.
Convention was 2 weeks ago. Lets just say, me and Seth are definetly through and we are going to try and be friends. We'll see how that goes.
I'm out!
( Your a 90's kid when: )
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| lunch time = update time |
[18 Nov 2004|11:09am] |
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I get to school this morning, and Josh comes up to me and says I need to update my livejournal. Okay... well here I am updating.
Nothing has really been going on lately... expect that I went to convention and saw Seth. I definetly made more of it then it really had to be. We got a long, and even ate a meal together... shocker. It turened out to be a fun weekend, just filled w/a lot of realizations.
Josh and me are well doing fine. He came to my house Sunday night and Monday and we hung out... and got in trouble... twice (once at school, amd once at home.) Other then that things have been pretty normal b/w us. Well execpt the bitchyness that over came me yesterday... whatever!
Mom has been gone for 2 days. Came back yesterday... was a little angry w/me... Oh well!
Progress reports come out tomorrow. Should be good- except my 1 D.. in English.
I'm out now.
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| my wildest dreams have come true! |
[10 Nov 2004|07:00pm] |
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Good news: me and Josh are REALLY dating.
Yearbook is going better... not that is was ever going bad... just over reacting a tad.
I leave friday for convention... which means Seth here I come.
Really scared to go... not b/c I think anything will happen... just seeing each other will be well weird.
I really like Josh ( i know you are probably reading this, but its true!)
I'm out...
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[01 Nov 2004|09:55pm] |
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Maybe it isn't what I thought it would be.
Maybe he doesn't like me.
Sad thing is, I think I liked him!
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| my new boyfriend. |
[25 Oct 2004|09:03pm] |
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okay. i have a new boyfriend. his name is josh and i don't know anything about him.
except: he's in 11th grade, he's in sci-fi club and is really cute!
we are going to make beautiful babies together (only kidding!!)
alright but the sad new of my entry: he really isn't my boyfriend.
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| the ultimate question |
[03 Oct 2004|09:14pm] |
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Should I face Seth in Novemeber or shouldn't I?
That really is the question.
Thoughts?
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| i'm busy getting blown away |
[27 Sep 2004|12:24am] |
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My life has now begun to offically sucking. Okay it kinda sucks. Hurricane number # 3 just hit, Seth and me are not really getting along (when I thought we hit a good thing in our last conversation) and wait, boys in general. Why does this happen all at once?
I was at Tyena's during the hurricane, and that is currently where I am stationed at. I didn't want to locked up at home, so instead I've been locked up here for 36 hrs (well at 8am it will be.)
Seth was online tonight, I tried talking to him. He still makes me angry. I also got my convention form at temple yesterday, and it had the same schedule as it did two years ago (where me and seth "met"). I honestly don't want to go to convention b/c I can't face him.
Boys in general have been AHHH! I don't really have anything to say about them, but just they give me a headach. And they think we are confusing?!
I'm out.
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| ready? |
[23 Sep 2004|05:50pm] |
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I am ready to change my layout...
Any Ideas?
comment me!
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| hurricanes and much more |
[07 Sep 2004|10:09pm] |
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So I am bound to think that my graduating class is one of the best. Your see these damn hurricanes are just keeping us in school longer. Thank go they haven't started exteneding the year. But who knows, they might actually have to do it. (Really, lets not try and think about it.)
Anyways, I have survived the hurricanes... yes that is plural. Now come to find out that there might be another one. I think the worst part of it all is that I have a cousin Charley and Ivan and a aunt Francis. That revenge of the family.... HAHA!
School has been pretty much non exsistent... which might actually be a good thing. I am not really a fan of school or anything, but since this should have been our 5th week of school and I have actually only been in school for 12 days and not even a full week yet... I'm kinda missing it. AHH... this is craziness.
I have made a new pact to myself. This one I am actually (wow I use that word a lot... haha) going to try to stick by. I want to be able to live in the moment and stop over analizing every damn thing. God damn it... I have to follow this one. Fuck I'm a senior and life is meant to be lives not analized all the fucking time. HAHA!!
I'm out.
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| Do we have classes together? |
[07 Aug 2004|02:10pm] |
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1st period: integrated math 3 w/Straube
2nd period: economics w/Atwood
3rd period: english honors 4 w/Fottler
4th period: latin 2 w/Rumpf
5th period: humanities w/Hayes
6th period: yearbook w/none other the Mayes
I would of gotten early release, but yearbook....
fyi: my b-day is tomorrow!
omg matt potter is a total hawtie hes the most awesomeistic person ever
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| this is the most pointless thing EVER! |
[28 Jul 2004|10:14pm] |
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Alright tonight I had a very interesting conversation w/Seth. He IMs me and goes "guess whose going to winter park next year." Me being curious said who... he was like Stephen. [He's his best friend that went to Disney w/me and Rachel; I also saw him at the awful prom.] "Ohh, so hes going to end school here," I asked. He was like no, he's staying here, I just wanted to get a reaction out of you. I was like what do you mean...he was like I wanted you to say how much you hate stephen and that you can't believe he's moving there. I asked why did you care what I thought. Then I preceded to tell him that a better reaction out of me would of been "oh, so that means you are going to start coming here again... great (w/sarcasim)." He was said yeah lol... I was like... no that was what I was really thinking.
I know that was a pretty pointless story, but I just thought I'd share on how our awful friendship is going, or should I say lack of friendship.
I did have something exciting happen to me lately. When I got home from Yearbookpalooza Adam called me from Israel. AHHH, I was soo happy to hear from him, expect I didn't really talk to him. He left a message on my answering machine. But it still was nice to hear his voice.
Last week I went to Yearbookpalooza. Its this big convention all about yearbook. Yeah I'm a dork, but so is everyone else that went. It wasn't that much this year. Last year was much better. Cira came to visit during the dance/talent show thing. It was good seeing her. I hadn't seen her in like 3 weeks.
I hate back to school shopping. I love getting new clothes though. Ironic isn't it? I got chucks though... they are birght pink! YAY!
Alright this is done.
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| nothing really |
[17 Jul 2004|07:41pm] |
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Nothing really has gone on this summer so far. I have been hanging out w/Hunter a lot b/c he is one of my only friends who is in town. I have also hung out a lot w/ Sascha ( kinda, more then normal.)Rebekah comes back in maybe 2 weeks. Alright just updating.
Sorry its soo short.
x-o-x-o
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| Life or something like it |
[28 Jun 2004|10:37am] |
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Yes, life has actually had no ups or downs, it been pretty much in a straight line for the past few days and weeks.
Thursday I had my wisdom teeth out. All 4 plus 1 more. I was totally knocked out, so I don't really remember anything ohter then I had juice all on my clothes when my mom and dad tried feeding before giving me my pain pill. Which by the way I only took 1 in the past 5 days. Not bad! I had slept a lot in 5 days, and totally have gotten caught up for the next 2 years.
Last night (which would of been Sunday night) I had some interesting conversations. I don't really want to get into all the details, but 1 person got really hurt...it wasn't my fault. I feel badly for what has happened to her, she is such a good person and doesn't deserve to be treated like how she is being treated. [Did that make any sense?]
Adam leaves tomorrow for Israel. I'm gonna miss him! We lost touch for so long, but now I feel like we are trying to get back what we used to have. But now, we lead such different lives and it hard to find common ground. Before we had our whole lives based around each other and now we don't. He did however, tell me something the last time we talked that really made me think. [Not that I don't think enough.] He told me that he doesn't know why he lost touch in me, it one thing he really regrets. But it wasn't just hime who lost in touch w/me... I must have played a part in it too, right?
That was totaly random paragraph. I am sorry this is so long that I had to bore you on my life, but you are the one who decided to read this. Hehe.
x-o-x-o
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| why do I have to think so damn much? |
[20 Jun 2004|06:09pm] |
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I love Evan greatly and this isn't meant to ridacule what he said to me yesterday. I need to say that before I started this entry.
Well last night he (Evan) asked me if I was okay. I am thinking to myself of course I'm fine. I have no reason to not be fine. Then of course b/c its me, and I begin thinking am I really fine. [A lot has happened in the past month and I haven't really reacted to it.] While in the process of thinking about how I might not really be fine, I begin to break down. Every little thing reminds me of how sucky my life might really may be. After I finish thinking about my life, I start to watch TV and try to fall alseep.. where I am again reminded of Seth. [Now I really don't like to think about him, and about how we used to be, b/c thats not healthy and we don't really work well together anymore.] That just makes me start thinking more, but more on how lonely I might really be. But in reality, I don't think i'm that lonely. I mean I don't want a boyfriend right now, but somehow I feel a sense of being alone. Does this even make any sense?
Why do I have to think so much!?
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| i thought this was kinda weird... |
[13 Jun 2004|09:24pm] |
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